Incomplete(continued)

boy,
I think I’m addicted to cheese cakes and coffee….
for every single day in this week,
I’ve been spend like so mush time in the library café,
reading, drinking and indulging myself in their cakes….
hmmm…..
initially, it was just an excuse for me to leave house early,
and not to spend those uneasy silent moments at home with my uncle around…
but then, after the first time, the second time…..
I felt that in reality, that wasn’t the sole reason that I was doing these…
realized that I actually find it comforting…
somehow or another,
having a book at hand and sinking myself into those soft pushy couches at the café,
allows me to just completely envelope myself in my reading
and forget of all the loneliness, worries and anxiety in my life…
with a book, a slice of Oreo cheesecake or brownie, and a cool cup of blended coffee in front of me…..
my world suddenly becomes whole.
furthermore, with those slow soul music playing through my head phones…..
just for that moment in time,
there’s nothing more that I could ask for……
nothing at all….
but too bad these heavenly moments only last for that short 2 hours or 3….
and when times up…..
back to the crude and terrible reality….
a cold, loneliness and incomplete world…
where happiness only comes and goes in brief little pockets of time,
while gloomy clouds dominate everything else……
sigh!!!!

~still looking forward to nothing other then another library session....sigh!!!

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