3:16 am, i'm suppose to be brainstorming and coming up with stuff for studio tomorrow(i mean thats why i'm in studio and not home......) but nothing seem to be coming up. to think that the past 2 days of R and R would have re-inspired me, but i'm coming to realize that, maybe it didn't.
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On friday, aft the 10hr plus bus ride the night before, the 3 consecutive dives and a-little-too-much drink after dinner, it was nice to just lay back on the rocker-chair at the beach looking up at the clear night sky. when everyones knocked out and in dreamland, one would think that the island would be dead quiet. but to my surprise, the constant rhythm of splashing of the waves agains the crudely constructed jetty, the whistling of the cooling sea breeze, plus the various cricks, squicks and hoots of coming from the jungle backdrop all came together like a well rehearsed symphony, something unexpected and, i must add, too darn rare in life today.
and being in the middle of no where when not a single souls awake was weirdly a very calming experience. plus the night sky was so clear, practically evey constellation was starring attentively down from up above, and the moon bathed eveything around in a such a soothing glow. it got me thinking, how nice it would be to just remain so forever, with no cares and no worries. guess its just the whole thought of running away from life that has been so unsettling now more-often-than-before, as well as home which doesn't at all feel like home because it just isn't. in a sense, it might be running away from people. most i'm glad, relieved and happy to alway be around, some i 'm blessed to have around and treasure beyond anything else, but unfortunately, a few seemed to be forced into my life, not wanting to be there, and certainly not wanted by me to be there. it is these few that makes life so unbearable, and these few that makes solitary so tempting sometimes.
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On friday, aft the 10hr plus bus ride the night before, the 3 consecutive dives and a-little-too-much drink after dinner, it was nice to just lay back on the rocker-chair at the beach looking up at the clear night sky. when everyones knocked out and in dreamland, one would think that the island would be dead quiet. but to my surprise, the constant rhythm of splashing of the waves agains the crudely constructed jetty, the whistling of the cooling sea breeze, plus the various cricks, squicks and hoots of coming from the jungle backdrop all came together like a well rehearsed symphony, something unexpected and, i must add, too darn rare in life today.
and being in the middle of no where when not a single souls awake was weirdly a very calming experience. plus the night sky was so clear, practically evey constellation was starring attentively down from up above, and the moon bathed eveything around in a such a soothing glow. it got me thinking, how nice it would be to just remain so forever, with no cares and no worries. guess its just the whole thought of running away from life that has been so unsettling now more-often-than-before, as well as home which doesn't at all feel like home because it just isn't. in a sense, it might be running away from people. most i'm glad, relieved and happy to alway be around, some i 'm blessed to have around and treasure beyond anything else, but unfortunately, a few seemed to be forced into my life, not wanting to be there, and certainly not wanted by me to be there. it is these few that makes life so unbearable, and these few that makes solitary so tempting sometimes.
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i was so prepared to sleep out there that night instead of the aircon room upstairs with the rest, but the flashes of lightning in the horizon was somewhat intimidating...haha!!
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oh well, i must say, though the past 3 days wasn't really a much needed time away, but nonetheless, the feeling of disregarding everything and anything in life for that few days just to do what i want, when i want and how i want was much refreshing.
anywayz. Happy Birthday Crosstina...hahahaha!!!
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oh well, i must say, though the past 3 days wasn't really a much needed time away, but nonetheless, the feeling of disregarding everything and anything in life for that few days just to do what i want, when i want and how i want was much refreshing.
anywayz. Happy Birthday Crosstina...hahahaha!!!
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