ARGH!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I’m gonna freaking burst a blood vessel soon…
why e hell is he so bloody difficult 2 handle..
bloody freaking spoilt brats…
spend e last bloody freaking hour trying 2 get tt idiot 2 remember his freaking spellin
n wat e hell do I get…he showing me his freaking attitude n dun even bother 2 try…CRAP!!!!
i'm so DAMN PISSED OFF!!!
he thinks I’ve nothing better 2 do then 2 sit on my bum n watch he show me tt freaking pissed off face of his when all I’m trying 2 do is 2 prevent his backside from being visited by e bloody cane…
wat!!! u think u’re pisssed off n tired n I’m not then……BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!
n still hav e nerses 2 lie 2 his mom tt he can remember all of them spellings….
UTTER HORSESHIT!!!!!!!!!
bloody hell..
why do I even bother??

2day was a very good day 2 hav started out with…
found out tt I can’t represent 2 organisations 2 race in SDBA. so either I’ve 2 let Terence down or I hav 2 let Vasim down…
worse still, not juz them alone…
e team as well, both sides….SHIT man!!!!!
e only way I see now is tt i convince Terence 2 get a replacement n I carry on with Vasim…
not even sure whether I’m still rowin K1 anot….sigh(“,)

had time trials during training 2day…n e timings were a disgrace….
1 bloody minute off my personal best of last year…freak!!!!! tt equals 2 like being trash by 5-6 boatlengths…..
at tis rate I’m going, heats is as far as I can go……man, I’ll juz b slaughtered out there in tis condition….a newbie sent out 2 battle….a small fry getting kick sky high in e butt…..
heck!!!!!!OVER MY DEAD BODY if I’ll ever let tt happen….
I’ll hav 2 do somemore extra trainings on my own now…
n each training better b up 2 blood-punking intensity….
n think its time I revisit e mental aspect of competition like wat I did last year
muz make e finals with Vasim….
we can do it,
its juz me n him n kallang n nothing else…..juz us n only us….
n we hav e experience, e power, e technique, e determination, n e need…
done it before, we’ll do it again…..

*well, at least now I’m not fuming as much anymore……sigh….*

anyway, havn’t seen Tuesday 4 2 days oredi…..
not last night, not tonight either…..hope his ok…….
yesterdays tuition didn’t go as well as I had hope….
Ethel was still as difficult 2 get thru…..n Geraldine was sticking 2 her quiet side….
hmmmmmmm……never really knew tt e education business was so damn tough

*now he’s getting scolded 4 not learnin his spellin(I didn’t tell…why should I even bother….his mom juz decided 2 test him b4 he sleeps)……
I should feel nothing, I hav e right 2 feel nothing since he deserves it,
but…………
why I’m I feelin sympathetic towards him??? why??? sigh*

Ethel wasn’t e only being difficult yesterday,
went back 2 help with e jnrs, n my boat too was freakin hard 2 connect with
all I ask is 2 echo so tt they can coordinate, but NO……
their golden mouths r so precious tt they can’t open…..sigh!!!!!
wat did I do wrong???? why can’t I get anyone 2 do e correct things 4 their own benefit????
sigh!!!!!!!!
anyway, muz thank Lionel n Kit-Kat… I noe u guys tried as hard as I did 2 pick up e spirit of e boat even when e rest weren’t really cooperating…Thankz!!