Nagasaki bomb cloud, originally uploaded by pangalactic gargleblaster.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
JUST unbelievable!!!!
just when i thought i can't hate a person more,
she proves me wrong!!
i'm angry,
beyond what i'm felt for a longlong time!!!!!
I wished i could has just when BLOODY 'NAGASAKI' on her on the spot!!!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!

this ain't healthy................

this is it!!!!!!!

"This is the law of benefits between men; the one ought to forget at once what he has given, and the other ought never to forget what he has received."

Lucius Annaeus Seneca

Thanks Anonymous, whoever you are!!!!

Dissertation makes a sleepy, thirsty and not a very happy Pek.

Since i woke up today,
i had:

-1 hr of snooze per every 1 hr of reading
-1 litre of Farmland freshmilk
-2 litres of water
-2 litres of Sunkist orange juice
-1 packet of soupy instant noodles for lunch
-1 bowl of Post Blueberry Morning cereal for dinner

urghhhhh...........feeling fat and bloat now........

No Pain, No Gain

No Pain, No Gain, originally uploaded by CAbure.

today is relatively a good day,
i rediscovered the joy of baking,
and remember that its the cleaning up that i hate.

i drop my buspass, atm card and 7 bucks,
but meet a kind soul,
though i had to step into a police station for the 2nd time in my life.
thankful that the officers were all very nice.

dinner was good, with good company,
and the walk in botanical gardens was refreshing.

heard on the radio this afternoon,
something that that Yas said that i thought was really quite true
to love someone
doesn't mean one needs to tell the one they love,
this is right and that is wrong;
do this but don't do that.
love is not to be one's conscience constantly,
like Jiminy Cricket is to Pinocchio.
but what's important is to be there always,
prepared to catch the one they love when they fall.
to support, encourage and believe in them.
and never ever ever ever ever ever.....
to judge them based on their mistakes.

i guess Yas couldn't have been more right.

Gotta Have You

nice song.

feelings felt but words unspoken
due to the 'what if' thoughs that haunt a worrier's mind.

thanks prawn for the recommendation

Nobody Knows Me at All

WAHAHAHA!!!!!

years back, i use to keep a little quote written on a tiny slip of paper in my wallet.
it was a qoute that i stumbled upon in the library and it stuck a cord in me.
so i wrote it down and i kept it.

many years and 2 wallets later,
now i can''t remember the exact words and the sayer of it.
all i remember is the vague gist of the quote
a quote which i've constantly remind myself to follow.

but now, more so than before, i find myself trying to remember.
its vague shadowy outline crucial,
like a lifeline that i'm hanging on to.
for if i've never stumbled onto it,
i figure i would have broken down and gave up on life many times over.

the vague shadowy outline:

one ought to forget immediately what one has given,

but one ought to never forget what one was given.

i might be wrong, so if anyone can help me remember, please do! i would like to remember again.

Up On The Roof

i want a roof to climb onto........

by Linda Solovic's .

Feeling less like one..........old age.............

pre-post declaration:
i'm in no right to complain to be in this pickle, for to be in it, one would already be considered lucky. Moreover, there are other less fortunate than i'm out there, and if anyone should be complaining, its them, not me. so this post is not a complain, but just a sort of commentary, a load of mindless rantings so that i can stop worry bout it and get to work. Do hope i don't sound like a spoilt ungrateful narcissitic brat...

2 phone calls today were the result of this bunch of confusion.
time management,
financial planning,
and prioritising...the 3 answer to my thought which i already know, but.........well........

anyway, looking beyond a life of needs, to a life of choices and wants( that why i say i'm already fortunate, for i've no need to worry bout needs of survival, and desires are the source of my worries). there are tonnes and tonnes of things out there which i've not done, or have not finish doing, that i want to do, but i've never gotten to it due to certain constrains and limits of life. my own life in particular.

i want to do well in my architecture pursuit. not just to pass, but achieve something out of it. for i know i can do much more, and better. Its my passion and that its not just work no more. Mr Farlow once said, if one is doing what he likes, one won't need to work a day in one's life. i want to stop being restless while designing, to stop being a procrastinator, and to stop having mental blocks.

i want to be part of the lives of those i treasure, and not just a hi/bye entity, but to matter, and to be dependable on and to be able to depend on, and to mean more than just another person in another life, to share not just moments joys, but times of trouble, and get one another through it. on top of this, to be much more to one above others, and to do much more for one.

i want to play capoeira. Not just to do it as a 2 times a week health routine thing, but to really incorporate it into my life. the skills and knowledge, that traditions and values, the practices and beliefs. all of which i'm grown to be accustom to and have felt a sense of belonging to. and i want to get better at it, to play with a flow and flexibility, to be decisive and precise in my attacks, to be clean and proper with my floreiros.

i want to dive more, and not just like onces or twice a year. to go back to the santuary thats out there in the deep blue, is like being home. no worries, no troubles, no stress, just to float weightlessly out there, taking in the colours of another world, colours one can never find on terra firma, and to just quietly observe.

i want to go back to endurance sports. though i never like running whatsoever, but the rush of completing a long distance run, or swim, or cycle, that sense of achievement and relieve, its like a drug that nothing can replace. i want to be able to complete that run, or that swim without giving up halfway, and not knowing how it felt like to have completed them.

i want to travel. to see more of the world than that little bit of what i've seen uptill now. For my world is very small now, with parts of malaysia and singappore, a teeny bit of australia, a peek of thailand, a glimpse of scandivania, and a teaspoon of europe. There's so much more out there to be experienced.

i want to skate more.With world rushing by me and wind against my face wisking away the humidity of the tropics, to be be able to achieve such speed by just strapping on a little something, its really an awesome feeling, not replacable by anything else.

and to cap it off, there are other materialistic wants that i have, but i shan't mention them here for i might sound more like the S.U.N.B that i already sound like.

well, back to the start, time management, financial planning and prioritising if done correctly will get me all this, the formal 2 are tough, easier done that said, but the latter, i don't really want to do it, for there are all as important to me....crap....life is a large sour pickle...no wonder i never did like pickles.....

i've really forgotten how a starry night should really look like up till Saturday night.
though it was Earth Hour, but i didn't turn off my light coz the 7.2V Torchlight was my only light source with 25.4m deep of seawater over me..haha!!!
But anyway, when we finally surface and did manage to turn off my torch...the sky took our breath away. Stars were littered everywhere, and there wasn't a single spot in the sky where you would have pointed and not be pointing to one or more stars. in Singapore, a clear starry night would mean cloudless skys with widely spread spots and dots of star blinking. But floating in the middle of the sea a starry night means a sky densely peforated with stars so fully packed that the whole entire sky shimmers like sequin. It like being in the planetariums omni theater, the rough curvature of the atmosphere can be seen as the stars spreaded from on end to the other, and even though it was pitch black, we could see. the effect of all this stars shining down on 6 of us floating on the surface of the wide open sea was truly magical..

on a side note!!! tan on friday, burnt on sat, and sun, and i have a feeling lobster red tomorrow, and peeling-like-a-banana by wed...sucks to be back!!

oh ya! Tim, for you...tons of Titan Triggers; a 25cm thick White Starry Moray; 1 equally big Black-Spotted Moray; 1 solitary turtle; 1 humongous lobster; the usual family of Humphead parrotfish, 3 adult and a baby; schools of Juneville Barracudas; a microscopic 1.5cm Squat Lobster, and *drumroll*....the pièce de résistance.....
1 gi-normous Mable Ray, not your typical plate size sambal stingray, but a 2.5m wing span giant, and
2 awesome whitetip reel sharks, which i sacrified a thumb to spot, at home in their coral den

we bask in your jealousy, bro!! haha!!!!

Little Red Riding Hood reintepretation!!

Cool Sh**!!!! hahaha!

the 96 service from NUS is seriously pissing me off.

Weekdays last 3 weeks:
i dragged myself out of bed in DDS at 7am to hopefully catch the 8am shutter service back to my aunts condo from Clementi. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! three to four 96A comes(and two to 3 183 pass the opposite busstop) before a 96. meaning i've to wait at the darn busstop for 45-50 minutes for a 96, and i'll miss my 8am shutter bus by plus minus 5min, and end up waiting another 40mins for the 845am shutter bus. So in total, roughly 30mins spent on the actual bus rides and 90 %^#$$#^%&%# mins spent WAITING!!!!


Weekend last week:
8am i'm waiting at the busstop to take 96 hopefully to make the 845am shutter bus from clementi. checking the info. board, none-peak hr frequency for 96 is 10min max as compare to 33's 18mins, and 188's 16min.....and guess wait.....one 33 and two 188 came before a single 96 arrived. waited 45mins for the stupid 96, missed my 845am shutter bus, and have to wait another 45mins for the 930am shutter bus....ARGH!!!

Monday, Tuesday and today:
lost faith on 96 and decided to cross the road to wait for 183 instead. AND THEN!!!! all 3 days, i sat there as stare as 96 drove by opposite within 20mins of me waiting for 183. JUST SHOOT ME!!!!!!

THANKS ALOT for wasting my time STUPID BUS SERVICES!!!

Struggles with oneself...

taken off http://laimikis.wordpress.com/

If only all things in life are that easy....wait....*scratchscratch*....diets are never easy too....darn it!!!

on a totally unrelated note...today i had a internal struggle within me. It wasn't bout something that just popped out of no where, cause i did pop its 'nose' once in a while into my mind, but most of the time i just gave it a flick and ignored it, and those time that i actually gave it much thought, i couldn't ballz up to the decision. but today, it's 'nose' came pokinig around again, while i was brushing my teeth this sleepy raining saturday afternoon.(yes...i only woke up in the afternoon....just a little after noon if i may add.) all this time, it has been there, maybe it just me being oblivious, but i think it has slowly been reveiled to me. not that i've done nothing, but maybe i've just not done enough. so it got me thinking again......

TO SHAVE OR NOT TO SHAVE(my head that is..haha!!) i think i've reveiling hair line, and my side, when they grow just a little longer, they're like weeds and its difficult to keep them tidy, as difficult as typing on microsoft with your left hand whils simultaneously sketchuping with your right and watching tv at the same time(dun believe me, i dare you to go try...) darn you people with silky soft long hair, why's the world so unfair and i've to be stuck with a head of curly stringy carpet....BOOOOO......

but yar...i'm not talking bout shaving like army boys shaving, i' talking but shaving like smooth as baby's butt shaving...baby's butt...darn it!! what in the world was it thinking!!!! think i shouldn't, i dun what to be wearing a baby's butt on my head!!! pssshhhhh...

p.s. this is a stupid post...sorry for wasting everybody's time...but wait...if you're reading this, it means you in a ishouldbedoingsomethingelsebuti'mjustprocrastinating mode...so in that case...i'm not sorry!!..HA!!!!!

Just another Friday in March

Today when by with nothing much and nothing at all,
Another day passing by with nothing to show.
I woke and I slept and I woke and I slept,
Being tugged nauseously back and forth
Like a rope in a war of tug-of-war.

People came and people went
Few lingered and said hi,
Other just merely pass me by.
None of whom really mattered,
just tiny specks in an empty white washed mind.

Funny how comfortable one gets to some
To an extend where comfort and dependence becomes a blur
With none that matters being around
Having lunch alone is dreadful so might as well not eat at all
For dinner will come surely like the sting after a fall.

So finally, in my company at 7 in the evening
A big Mac, some fries, with nuggets and ice tea,
Accompanied by a combination of barbeque sauce, mayo and chilly,
A dinner that filled the stomach,
But not the empty nothingness of another Friday in March.

Funny

sent to be by Mr Li Haomin....hahaha!!!!
Lesson to be learn: it pays to always be nice=] the penguins is beyond cute la...hahaha!!!!

You've Got A Friend - 3/3 -

a song for Far East Movement in collaboration with Wongfu Productions.

To all u special people and specialspecial one out there...enjoy!

You've Got A Friend

You've Got a Friend

HAppy Birthday UU, original photo taken by Dawn 'the Prawn' Lim

Happy 23th Birthday Miss Tan 'U' "U' enyi!! =]

HOw hard my physic teacher had to work!

HOw hard my physic teacher had to work!, originally uploaded by CAbure.

How i hated physics then, and how difficult it was for my teacher to change that point of view. but kudos to him...he did!!! haha!

issit because of an heighten sense of space and volumn due to 3 plus years of architecture training thats causes me to get irritated by 'this'.

you now like some people like to walk like they are the only person walking on the planet earth...the darn corridor or pavement is approximately 1800mm wide, more then enough for 3 adults to walk abreast if they want.....WHY?? WHY in the world would people like to walk SMACK in the middle....understandable if u're the only person walking there like...say 3 in the morning, but during peak hours, or like when its crowded, or like when its in a shopping mall!!! what you think just because you like to walk at that speed then everyone else oso must walk at that speed?? or just because you're not rushing that means everyone else also have all the time at hand and nothing better to do than to be trap behind you!!!!

sigh.......maybe i'm just being a prick....

Was supposed to go blading toady, but again, the weather beat me to it, so ended up spending 5 hrs in studio watching How I Met Your Mum....now thanks to NIcky and Thomas, i'm HOOKED!!! bait and hook and sinker HOOKED!!!!!

For those who have not seen How I Met Your Mum, i strongly recommend it. i would even put it on par with Friends...minus the Big Stars and Big Names, but man, it is a darn bloody good comedy. Funny and hilarious, yet at the same time, comforting, touching, and gives you the warm-and-fuzzy feeling inside. its a feel good comedy, centered around Love and Friendship, and it very heart warming.

i went through 9 episode in one sitting this afternoon, so it really really GOOD!!!!!!! go catch it.


Charles Bridge Tower, Praha, Czech Republic. Taken 2 days before Christmas 2 years back.

Love is not selfish...