pre-post declaration:
i'm in no right to complain to be in this pickle, for to be in it, one would already be considered lucky. Moreover, there are other less fortunate than i'm out there, and if anyone should be complaining, its them, not me. so this post is not a complain, but just a sort of commentary, a load of mindless rantings so that i can stop worry bout it and get to work. Do hope i don't sound like a spoilt ungrateful narcissitic brat...

2 phone calls today were the result of this bunch of confusion.
time management,
financial planning,
and prioritising...the 3 answer to my thought which i already know, but.........well........

anyway, looking beyond a life of needs, to a life of choices and wants( that why i say i'm already fortunate, for i've no need to worry bout needs of survival, and desires are the source of my worries). there are tonnes and tonnes of things out there which i've not done, or have not finish doing, that i want to do, but i've never gotten to it due to certain constrains and limits of life. my own life in particular.

i want to do well in my architecture pursuit. not just to pass, but achieve something out of it. for i know i can do much more, and better. Its my passion and that its not just work no more. Mr Farlow once said, if one is doing what he likes, one won't need to work a day in one's life. i want to stop being restless while designing, to stop being a procrastinator, and to stop having mental blocks.

i want to be part of the lives of those i treasure, and not just a hi/bye entity, but to matter, and to be dependable on and to be able to depend on, and to mean more than just another person in another life, to share not just moments joys, but times of trouble, and get one another through it. on top of this, to be much more to one above others, and to do much more for one.

i want to play capoeira. Not just to do it as a 2 times a week health routine thing, but to really incorporate it into my life. the skills and knowledge, that traditions and values, the practices and beliefs. all of which i'm grown to be accustom to and have felt a sense of belonging to. and i want to get better at it, to play with a flow and flexibility, to be decisive and precise in my attacks, to be clean and proper with my floreiros.

i want to dive more, and not just like onces or twice a year. to go back to the santuary thats out there in the deep blue, is like being home. no worries, no troubles, no stress, just to float weightlessly out there, taking in the colours of another world, colours one can never find on terra firma, and to just quietly observe.

i want to go back to endurance sports. though i never like running whatsoever, but the rush of completing a long distance run, or swim, or cycle, that sense of achievement and relieve, its like a drug that nothing can replace. i want to be able to complete that run, or that swim without giving up halfway, and not knowing how it felt like to have completed them.

i want to travel. to see more of the world than that little bit of what i've seen uptill now. For my world is very small now, with parts of malaysia and singappore, a teeny bit of australia, a peek of thailand, a glimpse of scandivania, and a teaspoon of europe. There's so much more out there to be experienced.

i want to skate more.With world rushing by me and wind against my face wisking away the humidity of the tropics, to be be able to achieve such speed by just strapping on a little something, its really an awesome feeling, not replacable by anything else.

and to cap it off, there are other materialistic wants that i have, but i shan't mention them here for i might sound more like the S.U.N.B that i already sound like.

well, back to the start, time management, financial planning and prioritising if done correctly will get me all this, the formal 2 are tough, easier done that said, but the latter, i don't really want to do it, for there are all as important to me....crap....life is a large sour pickle...no wonder i never did like pickles.....

i've really forgotten how a starry night should really look like up till Saturday night.
though it was Earth Hour, but i didn't turn off my light coz the 7.2V Torchlight was my only light source with 25.4m deep of seawater over me..haha!!!
But anyway, when we finally surface and did manage to turn off my torch...the sky took our breath away. Stars were littered everywhere, and there wasn't a single spot in the sky where you would have pointed and not be pointing to one or more stars. in Singapore, a clear starry night would mean cloudless skys with widely spread spots and dots of star blinking. But floating in the middle of the sea a starry night means a sky densely peforated with stars so fully packed that the whole entire sky shimmers like sequin. It like being in the planetariums omni theater, the rough curvature of the atmosphere can be seen as the stars spreaded from on end to the other, and even though it was pitch black, we could see. the effect of all this stars shining down on 6 of us floating on the surface of the wide open sea was truly magical..

on a side note!!! tan on friday, burnt on sat, and sun, and i have a feeling lobster red tomorrow, and peeling-like-a-banana by wed...sucks to be back!!

oh ya! Tim, for you...tons of Titan Triggers; a 25cm thick White Starry Moray; 1 equally big Black-Spotted Moray; 1 solitary turtle; 1 humongous lobster; the usual family of Humphead parrotfish, 3 adult and a baby; schools of Juneville Barracudas; a microscopic 1.5cm Squat Lobster, and *drumroll*....the pièce de résistance.....
1 gi-normous Mable Ray, not your typical plate size sambal stingray, but a 2.5m wing span giant, and
2 awesome whitetip reel sharks, which i sacrified a thumb to spot, at home in their coral den

we bask in your jealousy, bro!! haha!!!!

Little Red Riding Hood reintepretation!!

Cool Sh**!!!! hahaha!

the 96 service from NUS is seriously pissing me off.

Weekdays last 3 weeks:
i dragged myself out of bed in DDS at 7am to hopefully catch the 8am shutter service back to my aunts condo from Clementi. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! three to four 96A comes(and two to 3 183 pass the opposite busstop) before a 96. meaning i've to wait at the darn busstop for 45-50 minutes for a 96, and i'll miss my 8am shutter bus by plus minus 5min, and end up waiting another 40mins for the 845am shutter bus. So in total, roughly 30mins spent on the actual bus rides and 90 %^#$$#^%&%# mins spent WAITING!!!!


Weekend last week:
8am i'm waiting at the busstop to take 96 hopefully to make the 845am shutter bus from clementi. checking the info. board, none-peak hr frequency for 96 is 10min max as compare to 33's 18mins, and 188's 16min.....and guess wait.....one 33 and two 188 came before a single 96 arrived. waited 45mins for the stupid 96, missed my 845am shutter bus, and have to wait another 45mins for the 930am shutter bus....ARGH!!!

Monday, Tuesday and today:
lost faith on 96 and decided to cross the road to wait for 183 instead. AND THEN!!!! all 3 days, i sat there as stare as 96 drove by opposite within 20mins of me waiting for 183. JUST SHOOT ME!!!!!!

THANKS ALOT for wasting my time STUPID BUS SERVICES!!!

Struggles with oneself...

taken off http://laimikis.wordpress.com/

If only all things in life are that easy....wait....*scratchscratch*....diets are never easy too....darn it!!!

on a totally unrelated note...today i had a internal struggle within me. It wasn't bout something that just popped out of no where, cause i did pop its 'nose' once in a while into my mind, but most of the time i just gave it a flick and ignored it, and those time that i actually gave it much thought, i couldn't ballz up to the decision. but today, it's 'nose' came pokinig around again, while i was brushing my teeth this sleepy raining saturday afternoon.(yes...i only woke up in the afternoon....just a little after noon if i may add.) all this time, it has been there, maybe it just me being oblivious, but i think it has slowly been reveiled to me. not that i've done nothing, but maybe i've just not done enough. so it got me thinking again......

TO SHAVE OR NOT TO SHAVE(my head that is..haha!!) i think i've reveiling hair line, and my side, when they grow just a little longer, they're like weeds and its difficult to keep them tidy, as difficult as typing on microsoft with your left hand whils simultaneously sketchuping with your right and watching tv at the same time(dun believe me, i dare you to go try...) darn you people with silky soft long hair, why's the world so unfair and i've to be stuck with a head of curly stringy carpet....BOOOOO......

but yar...i'm not talking bout shaving like army boys shaving, i' talking but shaving like smooth as baby's butt shaving...baby's butt...darn it!! what in the world was it thinking!!!! think i shouldn't, i dun what to be wearing a baby's butt on my head!!! pssshhhhh...

p.s. this is a stupid post...sorry for wasting everybody's time...but wait...if you're reading this, it means you in a ishouldbedoingsomethingelsebuti'mjustprocrastinating mode...so in that case...i'm not sorry!!..HA!!!!!

Just another Friday in March

Today when by with nothing much and nothing at all,
Another day passing by with nothing to show.
I woke and I slept and I woke and I slept,
Being tugged nauseously back and forth
Like a rope in a war of tug-of-war.

People came and people went
Few lingered and said hi,
Other just merely pass me by.
None of whom really mattered,
just tiny specks in an empty white washed mind.

Funny how comfortable one gets to some
To an extend where comfort and dependence becomes a blur
With none that matters being around
Having lunch alone is dreadful so might as well not eat at all
For dinner will come surely like the sting after a fall.

So finally, in my company at 7 in the evening
A big Mac, some fries, with nuggets and ice tea,
Accompanied by a combination of barbeque sauce, mayo and chilly,
A dinner that filled the stomach,
But not the empty nothingness of another Friday in March.

Funny

sent to be by Mr Li Haomin....hahaha!!!!
Lesson to be learn: it pays to always be nice=] the penguins is beyond cute la...hahaha!!!!

You've Got A Friend - 3/3 -

a song for Far East Movement in collaboration with Wongfu Productions.

To all u special people and specialspecial one out there...enjoy!

You've Got A Friend

You've Got a Friend

HAppy Birthday UU, original photo taken by Dawn 'the Prawn' Lim

Happy 23th Birthday Miss Tan 'U' "U' enyi!! =]

HOw hard my physic teacher had to work!

HOw hard my physic teacher had to work!, originally uploaded by CAbure.

How i hated physics then, and how difficult it was for my teacher to change that point of view. but kudos to him...he did!!! haha!

issit because of an heighten sense of space and volumn due to 3 plus years of architecture training thats causes me to get irritated by 'this'.

you now like some people like to walk like they are the only person walking on the planet earth...the darn corridor or pavement is approximately 1800mm wide, more then enough for 3 adults to walk abreast if they want.....WHY?? WHY in the world would people like to walk SMACK in the middle....understandable if u're the only person walking there like...say 3 in the morning, but during peak hours, or like when its crowded, or like when its in a shopping mall!!! what you think just because you like to walk at that speed then everyone else oso must walk at that speed?? or just because you're not rushing that means everyone else also have all the time at hand and nothing better to do than to be trap behind you!!!!

sigh.......maybe i'm just being a prick....

Was supposed to go blading toady, but again, the weather beat me to it, so ended up spending 5 hrs in studio watching How I Met Your Mum....now thanks to NIcky and Thomas, i'm HOOKED!!! bait and hook and sinker HOOKED!!!!!

For those who have not seen How I Met Your Mum, i strongly recommend it. i would even put it on par with Friends...minus the Big Stars and Big Names, but man, it is a darn bloody good comedy. Funny and hilarious, yet at the same time, comforting, touching, and gives you the warm-and-fuzzy feeling inside. its a feel good comedy, centered around Love and Friendship, and it very heart warming.

i went through 9 episode in one sitting this afternoon, so it really really GOOD!!!!!!! go catch it.


Charles Bridge Tower, Praha, Czech Republic. Taken 2 days before Christmas 2 years back.

Love is not selfish...

Chinese New Year though a happy occasion mostly, but for the pass years, it has always been a little awkward. Being home, somethings just ain't as easy as not being home, which begs the question , whether home in a sense is still 'home'. *scratchscratch* anyway, there was certainly some revelation this CNY.

1. i think i've inherited most of my passive personality from my dad.

2. i still have no idea from whom i inherited my curly hair, small eyes and inability to squat with a flat feet...sigh...

3. my 2nd bro and i have came to an agreement that my youngest bro is best described as an over-achieving chunk of muscular fat with a disproportionally small head...haha!

4. though my dad thinks my youngest bro is a potential politician (while picking up my bro from sch in pri. 1 and helping him carry his bag, seeing how he greets almost everyone goodbye or how almost everyone and anyone grets him goodbye as they walk out of the sch gate, my dad said he felt like the bodyguard of a politician parading and greeting members of his constituency...hahahaha!!)

5. financial planning.....man it definitely not an easy task, and we should all start at it right away if we have not started yet.....AHHHH!!! hate it that money makes the world go round.

6. My ex piano teacher happens to be a distant relative of Joseph Lim Ee Mun. Joseph's dad is the grand uncle of my piano teacher.


Oh well, on a side note, i think my house can qualify as a branch of SPCA Shelter Home le. Last CNY it was Fatty the yellow garfield-looking cat that was adopted. This year, its 'Grandma'(Fatty's mum's mum) and her recent litter of 4 kittens. 4 bundles of cute/mischievous/daring/adventurous/naughty/curious furballs..hahaha!!! hmmm...think i inherited my love of animals from both my parents....ha!

on a side note, if CNY is a Superhero, his sidekick would most definitely be Overeat Boy!!hahaQ

anyway, introducing my 4 new family members..ha!

DSC06795, originally uploaded by CAbure.
2 weeks of sch has pass, and already i'm 3 days into my 23th year of existence.
pass 2 weeks has been like riding a rollercoaster.
high up above the world in one moment,
and the next,
like at the deepest chasm before i could do anything.
happy, sad, surprised, let-down, bored, breathless, depress, elated, desperate, alone, blessed, hopeless, hopeful, hateful, thankful, angry, calm, worried, resentful, contented, and some i can't describe.
is that why i'm feeling so tired now,
but then why can't i just get my mind to bloody shut off.

the day i turn 23th,
amongst all the things that happen that day,
that i'll gladly remember for the rest of my life,
this one, seemed to struck s certain cord.
it was what Mr Meng said.
its easy to focus on the detail,
get caught up in the small and nitty gritty things.
trying your best to perfect all the smallest flaws,
and worrying bout all the microscopic troubles in life.
whats difficult is,
to take a step back and look at the larger picture.
see how everything's coming together,
and to consider if every part of the large picture is alright.

in a sense, i think i'm already waist deep in the small picture.....

there are things to be done and said,
things to be thrown out in the clear,
but could how, and when, and where be up to faith?

is it not right for me to feel the way i do,
shouldn't the heart follow what the heart wants.
if so, then why are some things seemingly covered in shades of blue.

Image0002, originally uploaded by CAbure.

Thanks to everyone for the re-decoration cards, desktop wallpaper, and screensaver, and the makeshift cakes.

Thanks Jo for the Chocolates.

Thanks B, Sil and Serena for the surprisesurprise and the cake.

Staying over in studio over my birthday has become a happy thing. THANKSSSSS!!!!!!!

Dear B,

Happy 23th Birthday!!!! Hope we didn't give you too much of a shock last night..hahaha!!!!
anyways, Thanks for everything and above all, being who you are. Really hope that this new year would bring with it more smiles, and less worries for you, and may you always have walls for the winds, a roof for the rain, tea beside the fire, laughter to cheer you, those you love near you and all your heart might desire.

HAPPY 23th B-day B!!!

the year we thought you love frogs only to find out you actually love the colour green=]


jumping starfishes of Siloso


you had a Big smile for the 22nd,
so hope you have even BIGGER smile for your 23rd.

IMG_2200, originally uploaded by CAbure.

Happy 25th Mr Tai 'Bandleader-coolMLAdude' Shi Jie!!!! hahahaha!!! hope the card was that traumatizing....Coseng's idea lo, i'm just the messenger...hahaha!!!

Jul10124, originally uploaded by CAbure.

SLURP!!!!!! hahahahaha!!!!

9hrs of Chingay full dress rehearsal...i'm home with a sort second toe, and a fiftycent bruise on my knee....hahaha!!! but it was a good day=]

oh ya...ever wonder who is the world can organise and oversee an event as large as Chingay....the answer is *drumroll........ ONE MOTHER CRANKY RUDE AND LOUD DIRECTOR...who's gonna burst multiple bloodvessels and bleed through his backside very soon......rude twert!!

got it from http://www.lrca.net/Jul10124.jpg

Capoeira e ligeira- Mestre Suassuna

nice

Happy BIRTHDAY!!! Jonathan 'superbcameraman-foodlover-moobs-twotimesexstudiomate(two times EX studiomate!!!)-sketchupPROfessional' Lin!!!!! hahahaha!!!!!!!!

Always seen with his trusty camera taking the most amazing pictures!!

always a huge fan of A&W Original Root Beer....Slurp!!!

Not always grumpy......only when hungry and sleepy...

sometimes high and crazy....especially with the help of BOOZE!!!

most of the time shy in front of the camera, but bold behind one!!

never the one to craving for the limelight=]

Alright...as ordered by Ms T.......

6 things you probably don't know bout pek!!
1. i'm not very good at saying no...suckers for donations, tissue aunties, insurance agents etcetc
2. i totally and completely do not know how to react when someone crys......
3. watching movies alone aren't weird...its a time to smuggle in lots of food and stuff youself without people knowing.
4. friends to me are closer then family, but i suck at keeping contact with people.
5. i think love songs are sweet..........old school romance's are the best
6. i hate sunny side fried egg....but love every other way its cooked.....

there u go....hahaha!!!

haha

haha, originally uploaded by CAbure.

*hoot hoot hoot!!!*

from the bits and pieces i can find online, i think Chief Owl is saying: "hoothoot...hoooooothoothoot...hoothoot hoot hoothoot!!!!" hahaha!!! translation(Owls!! a new guest, ready to paaaaarteeeeeee!!!!) hahaha!!! i might be waywayway off..haha!!! thanks b!=]