Need to get away.

its a sunday....
and they are all back!!!!
my aunt and family came back 2 days earlier then i expected...
sigh!!!!! there goes my peace and quiet...

anyway,
she's back too...
i'm a little it happy for that,
maybe the spark of hope just go a teeny-weeny bit brighter..
but then so wat,
nothings change,
evrything is still the same...
haiz!!
and still i've not decided on what to do...
no one knows exactly whats happening in me......except myself.

think its time i give myself a break and get away from all this.
feel like going off diving for a weekend.
$450...spending amonths of my pay to escape from all these seems like a really good idea now.
hope being away clears my head.
got to stop worry bout scholarship,
and try to decdide on what to do on the other issue, or to just forget bout it.

~not happy, very worried,and need to get aways soon~