jacquet-roll-face1-510x762, originally uploaded by CAbure.

Exactly what i'm feeling!!

today is a weird day...
i couldn't decide want i wanted to do...

very undecisive and worrying.

Heart: "do it....just do it....you can do it...."

Head: "but what if???......."

Balls: "byebye...i'm out of here......"

*dot dot dot*

Ólafur Arnalds - Ljósið (Official Music Video)

no lyrics, just soothing heart beat and beautiful colours.

woken up by randomness was better than waking up to the cold alarm.

Image0047, originally uploaded by CAbure.

is this where our school fees go to....

to call Aortic-Pump Floor-Slab a gynecocentric Canis familaris is an insult to the Canis family.

Plain White T's - 1234 - Official Music Video (WATCH IN HQ!)

go watch District 9. its a good movie.

on a side note...here's a totally unrelated, but nice song.

1631 days back i had a dream
yesterday i had the same dream again.
only this time, some details were different,
and this time i remember her face.
it took 4 years and more.............

Random quote from Alexis Aristo Chua during a random supper meet up at a randomly picked location.

"I'm not bitchy!!! okaaayyyy!?!!?!?.....i just have a lot of feelings...."

Classic....haha!!

today while lloyd was briefing us on the Hunter-Douglas Shanghai Trip...

this came into my mind:

How to decide where to go?

it depends on whether they have toilet bowls..

Cause i don't wanna shit in a hole.....

pardon my random lameness......

Thoughts in my head on a Saturday morning

Somewhere around 0.5kmm mark (cramped shoulder to shoulder with ‘siao’ people):

Crap! Flag off already, we aren’t at the starting line yet….

At the 0km mark:

Finally!!! we start running…

Between 1-4km mark:

This is nice…weathers nice…scenery….nice…’sceneries’ excellent

Near the 5km mark:

Already?? Maybe this ain’t as tough as i thot…

Between 6-7km mark:

Wow!! They are turning back already??

Pass the 8km mark:

Where in the world is the turning point??

At the 11km mark:

HALF-WAY THERE!!! Yesssssshhhh!!! Ooohhhhh BANANA….munchmunchmunchmunch….

A little before the 13km mark:

hmmm….why can’t I feel my toes…??

A little after the 13km mark:

CRAP!! I FEEL MY TOES!!! OUCHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Approaching the 15km mark:

oh shit!!! Think I ran too fast at the beginning

Nearing the 16km mark:

WHY THE HELL AM I DOING THIS?? DISSERTATION SUBMISSION’S TOMORROW! GASPGASPGASP!!

At the 17km mark:

100 Plus! 100 Plus!! 100 Plus!!!

Pass the 17km mark:

arrrrrrrggghhhh!!! I drank too much….wanna puke! wanna puke!! wanna puke!!

At the 19km mark:

I hear capoeira MUSIC!! Where are they??

Passing the 19.5km mark:

WOOOOO HOOOOO!!!! GOOOOO CAPOEIRA!!!!!!! Sexy skirts dudeeeesss!!!!

Seeing the 20km mark:

calf cramp…shitshitshit…..

Pasing the 20.6km mark:

Calves cramps…..oh crap butt cramp….can’t stop!! Must finish with STYLE!!!!!

At the 20.8km mark:

FINISH LINE!!!!! Hobblehobblehobblehobble…….

Finishing across the 21.0975km mark:

YESSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Finaaaallllllyyyyyyy……pantpantpantpant….

At the 21.3km mark:

Takeoffshoes!!! Takeoffshoes!!! I can feel my feet and its NOT GOOODDD!!!!!!

abrasions on the armpit amongst other worse places,

some unresponsive toes,

a screaming acetabulofemoral joint,

a incomplete but due dissertation draft.

but a GREAT Sunday nevertheless...

why are some words so hard to say,

when u want to say them,

they just refuse to leave your mouth.

and when the moment pass,

u beat yourself over it in regret.

tell yourself things will be ok,

and indeed they do,

cause they say time heals.

but what if that's not what i want...

if it heals then i might forget.

i never want to forget.

"Age is something that doesn't matter, unless you are a cheese"

Bille Burke

The Longest Way 1.0 - one year walk/beard grow time lapse from Christoph Rehage on Vimeo.

Maybe sometimes all we need it some solid soul-searching and alone time....maybe not.

026_pics, originally uploaded by CAbure.

hey there,

“I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay”
hmmmm......and i'll cross my fingers real tight...

Tree Hugger by Antsy Pants and Kimya Dawson

=]

a flower wants to be a tree;
a tree wants to be a different tree;
a cat wants to be a bee;
a turtle wants to fly;
a a fish want to be....of all things,
a CACTUS!!!

well thats all of us there...haha!!!

peops

if u have time,go get hold of Gran Torino to watch. I have it if anyone wants it. its a helluva movie. but be warn, the ending's a sobber...

Towl(pronouced like towel) the owl caught in the evil life-strangling, soul-sucking grasp of Evil Blue2White's evil

malicious state-of-the-art camera pouch which he spend countless evil hours conceiving and building. Evil

Blue2White wasn't always an evil villain. Once a carefree and happy octopus just like any other octopi in the world

floating in the big blue ocean, he was caught by Dr Greater Evil, who's evil beyond any evil in this world, and was

subjected to years of evil torture and evil genetic experiments and in the end, after losing 3 of his 8 arms, and

uncontrollable cellular division on his face, Evil Blue2White became who he was today, with 1 evil blue eye said to

burn into the souls of all who stare at it.

It was his birthday...

its her birthday...

Birthday's are celebration of gift. Not just of birthday presents to the birthday boy/girl, but more importantly the celebration of the gift of "you" to the world. and no matter how time goes by, and how old we all get, you both will remain as always the wonderful and beautiful(hamsum...in your case lloyd!..haha!)people you are in my heart.. Thank you both for coming into my life.

Happy Birthday!

“When we recall the past, we usually find that it is the simplest things - not the great occasions - that in retrospect give off the greatest glow of happiness.”

Bob Hope

from me to me

as cliche as it might sound, please know that it not you, or you or any of you as a matter of fact. its just me. me being the emo-worrying closet pessimist i am as default. so if i've written something wrong or inappropriate in your opinion, i do apologize first. please know that without all of you, you, you and everyone else, i would be worse of then i'm now, and that i'm just trying to clear my thought here.

"There’re times you tell yourself thing’s are going to be ok...just like what you told those that you care when they were in need. But sometimes, that still lives you unsatisfied, and though you’re not particularly sad nor depress, happiness still seem far beyond your reach. You just sort of feel alone and unimportant. It’s like though there are people you care deeply for, there seem to be no one who deeply cares for you.

Each day goes by like yesterday where the only solace you could seek is the short few hours after work where alone you run pass strangers one after another. Not really knowing what you’re running from or running towards. Trying to convince yourself that you’re just trying to be like any other self-respecting, responsible human being trying to stay healthy and fit. But in truth, it’s an excuse to stay out as long as late as possible cause the so call ‘home’ you return every night is no where close to the calming sanctuary a home should be. And its also the time when your head’s so caught up telling your lung to struggle for each breath that’s it distract you from the haunting emotions that plague you during the rest of the days. It the only way that you can get yourself so exhausted that your mind stop wondering of think bout all the unhappy things during you ride bus ride back home, and exhausted enough to knock you out cold when you finally lay down in bed giving you no chance to ponder bout what’s sucks in your life.

then there’re those other time, where you’re just so sapped of energy to running from wallowing in your desolation that you just wonder aimlessly along the banks of the river for somehow and not knowing why you what and why you’re there. And though seeing all those happy people hanging out together in couples or in group all along the river bank leaves you longing for what seems to be missing, your still find it somewhat comforting to be there. Maybe it because the joy of these people unconsciously rubs itself onto you, or maybe it just feels better to see other happy. If not, it might just be that you’re a sadist and that you just subconsciously want to be close those things that you seem to not have thus giving you even more reason to lament over how sad your life is. Maybe, just maybe it because being near that watery body that you’ve come to be more at ease in, where you had as many happy memories in than out somehow makes your disguising life a little more tolerable

Once in a while, something good actually happens living you a ray of light that you hold onto to get you through the dreadful thoughts and seemingly meaningless and unfulfilling work. It becomes like a lifeline that you desperately hold onto so as not to drown in the self-bashing, gloomy and disappointing whirlpool that you has willingly dive head first into. But more then ever you find that when that day-you-have-looked-forwards-to-so –veryvery-much arrives, it doesn’t live you any better than you were before. Although its all smiles and cheery for a while, for which you’re more than grateful for and the company relieves you of the burden that has weigh you down during the week for that fleeting moment, but nonetheless when those brief few hours has past, once again, you sucked back into the murky depths. At times, even deeper than you were before cause you start remember those carefree time we had days and months before and question yourself why are we not longer like we were before, while others seem to still remain so. This question, which after countless attempts to answer, still leaves you in despair, and frustrated. Is this all part of growing up, if so you rather not and be like Peter in Neverneverland.

Maybe it time for you to wake up from the fairytale land that you’ve hoped for, where those that matters to you would be always there and that if you give willingly, you’ll receive in return when the time come. Shake yourself out of this suicide slumber and know that ultimately it’s you that matters to yourself. If you’re unwilling to help yourself and continue to withdraw into that life-killing cesspool of jealously, discontentment, misery and anger you’ve been swimming in, no one else can help you even if try really want to. WAKE UP PEK!"

Disney Pixar's Partly Cloudy [full]

BEAUTIFUL!!!!

taken off bbc, originally uploaded by CAbure.

unassuming beauty

unassuming beauty, originally uploaded by CAbure.

feeling like i've done something wrong...
problem is, i've no idea what it is...

when the aunts not home....

HAHA

HAHA, originally uploaded by CAbure.

the answer to a large portion of 'why's in my life...=]