My Dive Trip...

Hee…..=]
the past 2 days have been fantastic…
the R & R weekend over in Malaysia was better than I expected…..
everything was excellent…..
and I couldn’t really have asked for more…=]

we did 5 dives all together throughout Sat. and Sun.
3 on Sat. and 2 this morning.
and what they said was true……
“each and every dive, will be better than your previous dive”=D

Dive 1:
Nothing much cause this was the first dive.
had to go thru all the 6 basic exercises as well as the 2 Emergency Ascends…..
didn’t go deep for this dive,
and everything was....sand sand, dead corals and more sand……
and it was like in black and white…
haha!!
however, we did manage to see a black-spotted yellow moray eel…..
boy was it cooooool……..hahaha!!!!
Dave (our diving instructor) managed to get it out of its cave….
so we were able to see the whole eel….
was like a metre and a half long I think…=]

Dive 2:
this was a little more fun….
when to the same depth as dive one (5m) at somewhere called Monkey Bay….
at least the corals seemed more alive this time round…..
and there were much more colours…hahaha!!!!
and lots of fishes….
I mean LOTS and LOTS of them…..
black, white, blue, yellow, silver etcetc…
all kind of funny colours…haha!!

Dive 3:
WE SAW A LOBSTER!!!!!!!!!
hahaha!!!
it was hiding under this coral and was like petrified of us….haha!!!
and man was it huge…
as in like ‘served-on-dinner-table’ kind of size….
but all moving and alive….
Dave was trying to catch it,
but it just shot straight through his hands……
I didn’t know that lobsters move that fast,
and as a matter of fact, swim backwards…
hahaha!!!!
oh yar, saw a giant clam too….
not those small little peanuts we eat,
but huge huge clam….=]

Dive 4:
I think this was the worse dive of the 5…..
was bloody early,
and I was like diving half awake…
was a miracle I didn’t bump into anything…haha!!!
anyway, my mask kept fogging up,
and has to clear it like tonnes of times….
to add to my frustration,
I was on the verge of pissing in my wetsuit….
as I didn’t had time to do it before hitting the water….
and for those who don’t know,
the wet suite traps a layer of water between skin and itself for insulation….
so if I piss in it…. I’ll practically be wrapping myself in my piss….
hahahaha!!!!!!
it funny now, but think bout the agony I was in…….
nothing new too….
same kinds of corals, same kind of fishes..=]
Dive 5:
last dive of the trip,
and best of the lot….
before this trip,
I though clown fishes were cute,
but now,
I know they are CUTE……
really………they look even cuter than Nemo in really life…
hahaha!!!
we also had this big silver batfish that followed us through out the dive..
curiosity on the part of the fish I guess=]
there were also these 3 gigantic hump-head parrot fishes swimming around….
and when I say gigantic, I mean gigantic….
each was like 2 metres in length…..
apart from these….
we also saw a blue-spotted ray,
as well as a few crown of thorns (coral killers)……

~satisfied, but missing it already~

The MOD Squad...

MOD Squad transforming stance=]
(clockwise: me, Paul, Miao Ling, Yang Fan, Royston
Xing Yun, Xin Jia, Aik Min and Tiffany)


MOD-box (Theme: Modernism)...
(row 1: Marshall, Royston, Jia Xin, Yang Fan
row2: Xing Yun, Miao Ling
row 3: Me, Paul, Aik Min, Tiffany.)

War of the World????

two more days to go…..
and I can’t wait anymore…hahaha!!!!
two more days out of this uncomfortable hell hole……
and for the past few days,
the uncomfortable situation at home has mutated from bad,
to complete nonsense
it’s starting to resemble a war zone more and more…
on one hand you got the unhappy employer (my aunt) arguing with the seemingly inefficient maid,
on the other,
you have the angry mother (my aunt) disciplining her two unreasonable, hellish kids….
sigh!!!!!
it’s just utterly chaotic…
take for example this morning…
woke up a little late,
(reason: was out watching Fantastic 4 and have supper till about 3am=D)
and the first thing I hear before I even open my eyes is,
my distress aunt screaming and yelling at my 2 cousins…
threats, accusations and pleads, where flying everywhere…
not that I blame my aunt at all for the chaos…
given the situation in which I’m in her shoes,
I guess I wouldn’t have been able to control myself this long…
would have exploded long long long time ago.
but however,
without a doubt in my mind,
those two little freaks deserve all the discipline they can get…
those rascals are just totally out of control,
totally beyond saving in my eyes.
they are so rude, unreasonable, demanding and irritating!!!!!
they’re as un-lovable as any kid can get…
even the word ‘kid’ might be an inappropriate connotation in this case…
I think ‘little monsters’ might be more applicable…….seriously!!
fortunately, they aren’t the only 5 years old and 12 years old I know,
cause if they were,
I swore I would have hated kids…
thank goodness NO…
cause I my opinion, children are children,
youthful, adorable, lovable, a little teeny-weeny bit unreasonable sometimes….
children are a blessing=]
but those 2…
never in the world would they be blessings….

sigh!!!!
good thing after tomorrow,
I’ve one whole week away from here…..YEEEEEEEEE HAR!!!
then another week of late night SCUBA lessons,
follow by a peaceful diving weekend a ‘sea’ away from here…. =]
and then,
just got to survive another few days before I can MOVE!!!!!!
yEa!!!!!!!

~desperately wanting to bypass the next 48hrs of my life~

Its quite true....haha!!!

Your Rising Sign is Pisces

Dreaming and introspective, you're often lost in your thoughts. Which is okay by you... you're inner world is pretty darn awesome. And while you are inwardly confident, sometimes you seem a bit unsure. People often handle you more delicately than they need to. You love luxury, and even if you're a bit broke, you want things to look "rich." Mysterious and demure, you keep secrets about yourself to remain an enigma.

What is Your Rising Sign?

From a Grand Senior...

today, i found out that i was not award the scholarship....
sigh!!!!!!!
although i have been hoping and hoping and hoping that they would give it to me,
but then,
upon hearing that they didn't,
surprisingly i wasn't really that shock...
maybe amidst all the hoping,
i knew somewhere at the back of my head,
that with 2 As, 2 Bs, and a B3
it wasn't possible...
sigh!!!!!!
and so now,
i've to launch myself full force into applying for all those darn loan.....
sigh!!!!!!

oh welz,
apart from that unsurprising but none the less 'happy-less' morning,
my afternoon was great.
went down training as a naggy grand senior..haha!!!
think i was like a irritating fly bugging Xin Yun for the whole training.
She's a J1, and since Ted ask me to watch her and remind her of her mistakes,
somehow or another,
i found myself following and helping her through out the whole training...
not that i've anything to complain about,
since i'm actually really glad about it and i enjoyed myselft...
just hope that she doesn't feel irritated with a grand senior always tagging beside her...
if so.......Sorry Xin Yun!!!!=]
anyway,
she is really trying her best i can see...
just that sometimes she *blur blur* a little,
but after explaining stuff to her,
she does change,
and she do ask questions
and not just *nodnod* but still do the mistake like most.
though must say, she looked a little stressed out during her lappings and sprintings,
but after that,
a little encouragement always brought out a 'Smile' from her.....
and seeing that from a grand junior,
what else can this naggy old grand senior ask for...haha=D
to Xin Yun: Lets go yar!!!!!!! just relax and focus.....U GO GURL!!!!!!!=D

~ surprisingly not that anxious anymore, but still hoping for more~

What happen when it rains???

todays training was delayed because of a freak shower....
some funny photos of the team hiding in the shed...
hahaha!!

Name: AC(I) Canoeist
Scientific Name: Homosapien Retardus
Species: Primate
Habitat: Tropical Rain-Forest, Normally around huge bodies of water
Frequency of Sightings: Numerous( 4 times a week..)
Country of Origin: Singapore

14 monkeys in a cage...

the intelligent one on the chair...

another intelligent one actually reading....ot pretending to read..haha=D

Incomplete(continued)

boy,
I think I’m addicted to cheese cakes and coffee….
for every single day in this week,
I’ve been spend like so mush time in the library café,
reading, drinking and indulging myself in their cakes….
hmmm…..
initially, it was just an excuse for me to leave house early,
and not to spend those uneasy silent moments at home with my uncle around…
but then, after the first time, the second time…..
I felt that in reality, that wasn’t the sole reason that I was doing these…
realized that I actually find it comforting…
somehow or another,
having a book at hand and sinking myself into those soft pushy couches at the café,
allows me to just completely envelope myself in my reading
and forget of all the loneliness, worries and anxiety in my life…
with a book, a slice of Oreo cheesecake or brownie, and a cool cup of blended coffee in front of me…..
my world suddenly becomes whole.
furthermore, with those slow soul music playing through my head phones…..
just for that moment in time,
there’s nothing more that I could ask for……
nothing at all….
but too bad these heavenly moments only last for that short 2 hours or 3….
and when times up…..
back to the crude and terrible reality….
a cold, loneliness and incomplete world…
where happiness only comes and goes in brief little pockets of time,
while gloomy clouds dominate everything else……
sigh!!!!

~still looking forward to nothing other then another library session....sigh!!!

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The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's the True You?

Incomplete

the whole of this week something is amiss…
felt a sort of ‘incomplete-ness’ more frequent than usual in this five days.
sigh!!!

it started of with training…
even now, when I’m down paddling,
there’s a void in me which was once filled,
a void which I’ve never felt before in all my competitive years in this sport.
can’t really put a finger on exactly what is wrong.
the only thing I know is that,
I no longer have the ‘I’m-the-fastest-boat-on-the-water’ feeling anymore.
though this might sound a little egoistic,
but it was really how I felt through out all these years.
during all the hundred training sessions that I’ve survived through
it’s a sense of pride and motivation for me as a kayaker/canoeist,
a pride of being among the top,
a pride for my own craft and event,
and my sole basic motivation to push beyond my limits during all those torturous trainings.
however, this feeling, this pride seems to be wavering recently…
though I’m still flying of the starting line,
still trying my best to lead, to enjoy the feeling of leading,
but then, somewhere up in this head of mine,
there’s the voice telling me to slow down.
a voice reminding me that it’s no longer about me,
I no longer have the luxury of being trained.
now it’s about them,
those boys, my juniors, grand-juniors.
I’m no longer the one to step into the ‘battlefield’,
but now it’s me responsibility to prepare them for ‘battle’,
and not to prepare myself…
and with that, I’ll have to slowdown,
and tail behind them to watch and train them.
although, I’m doing it, but I do not like it at all…
every single time I slow down for them to catch up so as to observe them,
I find myself slowing down more and more and more,
till a point where catching up for me is no longer possible.
for the pass 6 years,
I’ve come to be so bloody comfortable of being ahead always,
leading the pack with a clear unobstructed view of the horizon ahead,
chasing down more superior boats in my own,
taking T2s in my T1, hanging on to K2s in my K1,
until a point that now,
as long as another boat is in front,
I find myself losing everything I hold so dearly out on the water…
and not being able to get it back…sigh!!

~empty...so very very empty...~

A too normal week.

this week hadnt' been really an excellent week,
but then, it wasn't really a bad week either...

certain 'goods' and certain 'bads' occur...
guess this is what a normal week is like for normal people.

anyway, all of this weeks training were not as good,
mainly becaused i missed 3 session last week.
and the truth is,
missing 3 session practically kill all the fitness i've obtain for the past 2 months or so...
it felt shitty, really shitty...
everything was slow and heavy,
there was so much drag,
and i couldn't keep up with training...
oh well, who to blame but me, myself and i....
but must say, compared to Tues, Wed and Thurs,
today's training did felt a little better...
cheers cheers for that.

BUT,
for the second time this year,
i lost my library card and POSBank card again.....AHHHHH!!!!!!!!
F**K!!!!
need to pay another 10 bucks in total to get a replacement....
sigh!!

on the bright side,
i finally came around to sign-up for a basic open water scuba course...
something that i have always wanted to do,
but never got the time of money to.
whatever it is,
i've decided that i should do it now,
spend a portion of my pay to just get away for everything and relax before sch starts....
i can't wait...=]

apart from all this,
i can only add that i was at the 'wrong place at the wrong time' this week.
always assume that she'll be there,
but this only lead to disappointment.....sigh!!!!
and
still no new from OAM and MOE......sigh!!!!again...

~not happy, not sad, a little bored of life~

SmiLeeeeeee............=D

At your doorstep
large and square
a handful of drifted leaves
curl in the step’s corner
finding shelter

although I hesitate
an open door and simple mat
need no biding
to enter irrevocably, parched ---

you offer water
and your smile ---
I’ll drench in your miracle
abducted --- betrothed --- cherished.

Niceeeee..........
today, it came pleasently and unexpectedly,
making total 'smile count' up to 3=D
it really brightened up my whole day...=]
even classes tonight were a breeze after that...
haha!!!!

~More on the brighter side, but still a little worried~

Need to get away.

its a sunday....
and they are all back!!!!
my aunt and family came back 2 days earlier then i expected...
sigh!!!!! there goes my peace and quiet...

anyway,
she's back too...
i'm a little it happy for that,
maybe the spark of hope just go a teeny-weeny bit brighter..
but then so wat,
nothings change,
evrything is still the same...
haiz!!
and still i've not decided on what to do...
no one knows exactly whats happening in me......except myself.

think its time i give myself a break and get away from all this.
feel like going off diving for a weekend.
$450...spending amonths of my pay to escape from all these seems like a really good idea now.
hope being away clears my head.
got to stop worry bout scholarship,
and try to decdide on what to do on the other issue, or to just forget bout it.

~not happy, very worried,and need to get aways soon~

Where.........When.........

She wasn't there.........
sigh!!!

He seemed real happy today.....
why??

Just got a phone call from Yan Bin,
called to ask whether had i got a reply from NUS bout the ASEAN Scholarship....
got me all wrecked up and nervous now....
did i get it or did i not get it???
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
i can't stand waiting for practically everything in my life now no more!!!!!!!!

~a little disappointed and very very worried~

Love and friendship.

"We are each other,

angel with only one wing.

We can only fly,

by embracing one another."

friendship and love might be two things that seem interconnected and related,
but sometimes in life, they seem like two totally different things.
though some might say that the line between being just friends

and going a level higher is a fine one.
however when people arrive at ‘The Edge’,
it seems like a line with an infinite width.
it might be true that friendship happens out of love,
but does love require friendship??
sometimes friendship becomes a hindrance to love.

life is already extremely confusing,
but when this issue of love and friendship come into play…
life becomes beyond confusing.
consider these:

Case 1:
When one wants to bring friendship to the next level,
there is a risk that it might be one sided.
hence if carried out,
a precious friendship might be in jeopardy.
but on the flip side,
loving someone in silence without letting the other know
and not being loved back is e terrible and often unbearable experience.

Case 2:
In the game of love,
many say that it is fair play, where everyone has the chance.
in some ways, it’s like a competition,
where the best player wins.
but what if both ‘players’ in this game of love are originally friends??
friends trying the best to gain the heart of a same someone.
now, can is still be a fair game??
or because of their friendship,
one should give up love for the happiness of his friend??
if that’s the case, who should pull out??

Case 3:
is it necessary for a relationship to start out as friendship??
thus does it mean that those that don’t are doomed to fail?
but if friendship are really the foundation of relationships,
then what is the explaination between the troubles mentioned above??
won’t it be less confusing and in some cases less painful if…
friends are just friends,
and couples are just couples??

Sigh!!!!
being caught in one or more of these situations is indeed unfortunate.

~not as happy and still as confused~

Two Smiles...

Smiles were exchanged today...
two to be specific,
two though normal and common smiles,
and though you there, smiling back at me, didn't know,
but those two smiles meant quite a lot to me.
they were beautiful,
they were special,
and i couldn't stop smiling back at myself whenever i thought of them.
though i don't exactly know why,
but because of these two smiles,
I'm really really Happy...=]

not that miserably, but still confusingly...

Sigh!!!!!
Should I??? or should I not??
i really want to, but then what if things do not turn out the way i hope??....
not that there's anything happening at all right not,
and i'm not exactly happy with it..........
sigh!!!!
just looking at them two together......finally........
means that sweet things like that can actually happen,
and it makes me wanna just do it,
i mean if they can, why can't I??
but why the indecisiveness???? WHY WHY WHY!!!
sigh!!!!*sad*

~miserably and confusingly~

Am i Mature??

Managed to grab a few minute of chat time on MSN with Ching Chui on Sat. night.
been quite a while since I’ve seen or even heard from her,
but like all my other primary sch. mates,
miracles do happen to the undeserving,
just for info sake, Ching Chui ain’t my classmate at all,
in fact, she’s one year my senior back in Pei Hua Pri.
but she came over to Singapore together with me and Wei Phin.=]

was trying (not…..emphasis on ‘trying’…) to listen and give my view point and advise on a certain issue that she was facing right now,
and well, as usual,
I was trying my best to be more of a listening-ear then an advising-mouth,
anyway, she said I am really mature for my age……
and this got me thinking:
is that a compliment?? or just a nice way of saying you’re OLD!!..haha!!!
and am I really that mature??

the thing is, how do you tell whether a person is mature or not…
based on how he talks?? acts?? behaves??
but all this boils down to how he analyses and thinks in his head,
and to act what you think, doesn’t really occur that often.
I mean very single person puts on facades of different kinds in different situations,
and so, is being mature the ability to put on an appropriate façade in a given situation regardless of how you feel emotionally??
because this is was I think ‘being mature’ has become in our world.

As for myself,
I wouldn’t really consider myself as mature for my age…
(unless I take into account the ‘thirty-year-old face’ I have…haha!!)
I now for a fact, that there a certain things in my life that I can’t settle,
certain problems that I can’t solve,
and certain issues that I refuse to face and choose instead to ignore…

for example,
I’m glad dish out advices to help any friend that is in need,
and I’ll always try my best to help or comfort people I know or to lend a listening ear when ever needed.
However, I’ve come to realized that sometimes,
I tend to do this selectively and randomly.
on occasions I would spend time regardless of everything else to help a friend,
but sometimes I just chose to ignore,
and sink into the so called ‘Victim-Complex’ where I convince myself that I can’t help them even though I want to…
Furthermore, for the same issues and problems that I advice my friends on,
I, myself can carry out what I advise others to do when left in that particular situation which is some what similar.
in other words, I feel like a hypocrite, not being able to do what I advice of other??
A real good example would be in my social and academic life…
and thus, as such I feel that I’m not really that mature after all……

on the flip side,
I have also come to realize some characteristic and behavioral changes on my behalf.
towards the good side that is.
but are these signs of maturity or not, I’ve no idea.
for example,
last Sunday, Wei Yuan they all said they wanted to meet up for lunch and probably a movie after that,
but as my Big Uncle was in town, I told them I would not join them for lunch,
but would meet them after that if they’re doing anything else that is…
and so, they said they would confirm with me again of their plans after lunch.
but the confirmation NEVER CAME!!! I waited and waited and waited for the to reply to my countless messages but they never did,
until I was so worried that I had to call Wei Yuan up to ask.
and to my horror, they had already decided to watch the 3 o’clock movie (time then was 2:45 and I’ve already waited for 2 hours…)
at that point of time,
I wanted to get pissed.
deep down inside I was boiling with anger and just wanted to hurl verbal abuses across the line.
but then……
I couldn’t bring myself to do it.
though it was bloody uncomfortable to control myself,
I did.
but I didn’t want to, and however I tried to explode in anger,
it didn’t happen.
I really wanted to be angry and pissed of, but I couldn’t.
now this was something new to me,
I it got me quite shocked and worried.
the Pek Hong I knew would have been extremely uncontrollably angry.
and he would have at least vent his anger somehow or another over the line.
but then, I didn’t,
now, is this a result of being a little more mature??
I wished it was, but I’m not 100% convinced it is…

S.C.U.B.A.

today was another quality day spent with none other then…….ME!!!
Me, Myself and I…..=]

had lunch with Jesse at Kent Ridge after dropping off the Matriculation Form at NUS.
and it was a good thing that I did,
if I hadn’t I wouldn’t have found out that there are things that I still need to apply for before Semester starts…….
*phew*…..what a relief!!!!!

Anyway, highlight of the day came towards the later part of the afternoon.
I WENT SCUBA DIVING……in a three by three by four metre tank….hahaha!!!!!
was strolling around Suntec and coincidentally they were having some sort of Diving promotion with free try-outs….
and to think yesterday night I saw an ad. on the paper on a SCUBA course for $400++ I think…..
so immediately I jumped at the chance of trying that out right there on the spot…..
and man…..IT WAS FREAKING COOOOOOLLLLLL!!!!!!
minus the part where I had to be in a body suit right at the entrance of Suntec,
waiting to jump in a Toilet cubicle size tank of water…..
hahahaha!!!!!!!!
but then, the awkwardness of that was way compensated by the opportunity to try out diving=]…….
hahaha!!!!!!
took a dive with Mike, the on site instructor,
and learned some of the basics of SCUBA diving…
though it was only a 20-30 minute thingy a lifeless container tank (not including me and Mike, the instructor)
but it sure was worth my time……
the feeling of being able to stay underwater without worries was so freaking coooool!!!!
it was like total freedom…. (imagine it was in the sea instead of a tank)...hahaha!!!
maybe I’ve just found the right hobby to replace canoeing……
only problem is, it might have to steep a price tag for me to take on……..
think NUS has a diving club……….hmmmmm……
gonna check that out right now……
BYE!!!

A good start to a hopefully good week=]

this week has been quite a good week until now=]
one thing for sure, I truly enjoyed coaching this week……=]

Monday was my maiden coaching session at a primary sch.
and up till that day, the only primary sch. kid that I was in contact with was my ‘cousin from hell’
so just can imagine the intensive mental preparation and psyching up I need to do……
I was absolutely terrified, and was really prepared for the worse.
furthermore, after the smooth sailing at Xin Min Sec, and Maris Stella High,
it was a jump from the cliff into hell at Zhong Hua Secondary……
and to add to my misery, ‘Study Skills’ was the topic, not just a new topic for me, but also a bloody boring topic in my opinion….

However, to my pleasant surprised…
it was one of the best lesson ever……on the same league as Xin Min Sec.
not only did the kids enjoy themselves,
I think I enjoyed it more then them…..hahahahahahaha!!!!!!
some how it was so easy relating to them,
and bringing myself down to their level to communicate with them wasn’t as difficult as I imagine….=D
the kids were absolutely 100% captured by the lesson and its was laughter all the way through, from the start to the end…..
man….the sense of achievement after that lesson was terrific,
what a morale booster it was for me, and what appropriate timing too….
it’s the kind of sch that brings back the joy of coaching when I’m already given up hope of any improvements…..
hahahaha!!!!!
THANKZ Group 5 of Maha Bodhi Primary…=]

More over, the comments on my evaluation forms were the best ever……
what really touched me was that one of the kids actually passed me a note after the lesson,
and written on a nicely folded paper was just a simple line of:
‘YOU’RE THE FUNNIEST COACH EVA!!!’
to some, they might just say, “so what??”
but for me, I was really really touched.
that smile when she handed me that note told everything…..
and it was really a sincere and honest compliment without any hidden underlining meanings….
when she ask whether I would be continuing the lessons today, and found out that someone else was to stand in for me instead,
that was true disappointment in was voice and expression…..I felt so helpless at that time(“,)
what to do, I had to attend training today…..
but THANKZ A LOT Zi Hui!!!!!!!!=D

for kids that age, I would like to believe that they’re still saying what they actually feel,
and not re-package their thoughts and feelings into a manner that is hidden behind a false façade.
even now, I can’t stop myself from smiling when I’m writing this…..
every laughter and smile and happiness expressed during that lesson was really,
was from the heart, and none involve sarcasm what so ever.
nothing was fake,
nothing was done out of pretence
and everything said and done was meant what they meant…..=]

training yesterday afternoon went really really well……
maybe it was because of the ‘best-ever’ coaching session that morning,
haha!!!!
went down in Hath absolutely loved it….
was ahead and happy with everything I was doing…
there wasn’t no drag, nor was there any struggling for balance…..
everything was A-OK between me and Hath…..=]
perfecto!!!!

alright… time for me to hit the bed….
tomorrow’s AC-ing at East Spring Primary,
at 0715hr…..
and where’s East Spring Pri………
TAMPINES!!!!!!! takes like the other end of S’por….
have to wake up at 0500hr again……sigh!!!!
oh welz, got Yina to come along too…..
hope she’ll like it…..hahaha!!!!!!
Nites Yall!!!!!

YEEEEEE HAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
its finally here!!!
The Letter of Acceptance......yEa!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha!!!!!!
i'm in......
i got into Archi. =D
hahaha!!!!!
i'm like over the moon right now.....
hahaha!!!!

Time to change!!!!!

ok……
first blog in a week since I lost my wallet……
nope, it’s still not found,
and nope, I’m not feeling anymore desperate for it…..
but then,
habit of sticking my hand back into my pocket for it is still not gone….
and it’s actually quite funny….
every time I stick my hand in and find nothing,
for a moment I get a little anxious… then it hit me that I’ve lost it…
hahaha!!!!

anyway, this blog will once again be a ‘complaining’ one…..
and the topic of the day is…..
“How Chauvinistic Men Can Actually get……..”
this is what happen……

on wed, it was the follow up lesson on DISC Personality for Xin Min Secondary….
and needless to say, it went terrifically well,
and I’m really really happy for that….
THANKZ 4E5=]
okok….back to the point,
after the lesson, me, Coach Sean, Coach J and Coach Yuka piled into Coach Isaac’s car and left…..
and well, all of us other then Yuka were planning to go eat….
and so, we had to decide where to drop Yuka,
as in where was most convenient….
but then,
she couldn’t decide,
or actually, didn’t really wanna trouble us and just wanted to drop along the way we were going,
but then, Sean was like asking and asking and asking her where she wanted to go….
and there was actually tinge of hostility and frustration in his tone…..
come on lah, where the lady wants to go is her business,
why try so hard to pry into other people’s life…..
as I was sitting next to Yuka and beside Sean, I feel really ashame of Sean’s behavior and attitude…..
this is why we male are labeled Chauvinistic,
we look down on the fairer sex……
sigh!!!!
maybe I was to blame too….
I was torn between going for lunch with the rest,
and going off with Yuka like our normal routine……
so, I guess she was sort of indirectly pressured to follow us when I decided to get in the car…….
sigh!!!
would have been better if I just when off with her,
save everyone the embarrassment…….
I felt real bad….then…..
Sorry Yuka…..

I seriously feel that some of us men out there must start learning how to treat ladies with the proper respect they deserve…..
and not just the “whatever” kind of don’t care attitude……
TIME TO CHANGE GUYS!!!!!!

A good day turn nat so good....

I LOST MY WALLET!!!!
but the funny thing is…….

today started out quite ok…
decided to finally go change my stupid phone charger and its connection.
so headed down to orchard road to do it…
so as they took my phone to repair for 3 whole hrs,
I went wondering around aimlessly at orchard.

not really a good idea…..come to think of it now…..
just before collecting my phone back,
I went to toilet, and it was there that I left my wallet (at least that’s where I think)
and so……bye bye wallet and everything in it
(ie Bus Pass with bout $18 in it, Posbank Card, Library Card, half me last months pay...AHHHHHH!!!!!!, tonnes of receipts, and many many name cards....)

what’s so funny was….
I thinking a caught a glimpse of what growing up as done to me today….
I was neither panicked nor nervous when I realized my wallet was gone,
and anger never struck me at all when I couldn’t find it…
first thing that came into mind was….
Bus Pass, Library Card and Posbank Card,
the three most important items in my ‘byebye’ wallet.
and immediately I went and cancelled my Posbank card and attempted to get the lady at the counter to allow me to withdraw some money to go home…..
yes…I was stuck in orchard without money and Bus Pass.
but that’s wasn’t possible…
and so, next thing I did was called up Steph. to see if she was working that day and could lend me a few buck to go home….
but that wasn’t meant to be too….she was home…
and through out the whole time, I was surprisingly calm for a ‘virgin’ in losing wallets.
fortunately Steph. suggested asking her co-workers to lend be money…
and while she was calling her co-worker, I was already coming up with a back-up plan….
Plan B was give Coach Isaac a call,
that cab back to office,
borrow cash from Isaac to pay cab and go home…..
there wasn’t any panick what so ever…
and for that I’m pleasantly surprised….
maybe I did change quite a lot throughout the years….=]

anyway, a few people I really need to thanks,
thank you Steph. for helping out,
thanks Helen (Steph.’s co-worker) for lending me 2 bucks so cheerfully and willingly
if it ain’t for you guys, I’ll be camping at orchard road tonight…haha!!
thanks also to Stace. who volunteered her mom or herself to pay for a cab to her house or office without a thought,
the Cheerful customer service officer at the bank for ebing so helpful,
and the kind Aunty in black who offered to lend me money to take the bus to tuition…..
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU……..=D

and NO THANK big-fat-stuck-up no. 30 bus driver…..
hope you get your big fat arse stuck in the toilet bowl the next time you crap…….bleah!!!!

finally, HAPPY 45min before BIRTHDAY STEPH!!!!!

Thats what friends are for......

And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see

A so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart

Well then close your eyes and know

These words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember

*Keep smilin' keep shinin'

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

That's what friends are for

In good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Dionne Warwick

woke up to a raining Sunday morning….
thought and actually hope to have a day of peace and quiet,
since it’s the best weather to cuddle up and just relax and read.
but then…someone somewhere seems to have different plans for me,
and I’m not exactly trill bout the whole thing.

firstly, as usually my aunt and her whole family is at home,
and I’m feeling the usual uneasiness when their all at home.

secondly, my other aunt is up to one of her i’m-try-to-be-cheerful kind of mood…
and it really ain’t helping the whole situation….
cause she really has a completely misplaced sense of and timing for humour…
plus with that short fuse of hers….
unpredictable swings of mood might and will occur…..sigh!!!!

thirdly, Mum was called today….
and well, apart from the usual asking of ‘how are you??” how’s everything??...” and stuff,
to my horror, I was informed that my second bro was once again up to no good….
apparently, he’s been playing truant from tuition lessons for the past month or more….
be running of to do who knows what with friends of his after being drop off at the tuition venue….
haiz!!!!! Mum wants me to talk to him……
but how?? how??
not that I never try, but I always get the silent treatment.
plus I’m not actually a person good at talking….
more of a listener……
but I can’t sit around and do nothing,
cause my Mum had tried, my Dad has tried,
but its just that he doesn’t listen….
crap!!!!!!!!
I feel so darn useless and hopeless now….
and to rub it in,
that idiotic mood-swimg aunt of mine is nagging and nagging and nagging….
nagging me to talk to my bro…..
f*** lah!!! not that I dun want to….
but I don’t know how to...and I’m trying to find a way to….
so get the freaking hell of my case b****….

crap!!! I gotta get out now…..
need some time alone without any of them……